The Social Network and Mental Shock:Writers Block

I know what you're thinking. I'm not talking about that movie but I'm referring to THE actual social network. Don't get what I'm saying? Fine. Then let me story you  a bit  about what happened to me today.

Once upon a time...*LMAO*

I had Writing skills class today. And it was awesome.  Here's  he part where the title is referring to. The first activity that we done in class that day was kinda like random date kind of thingy *understand me?* You know, when you're being set up for a blind date kind of event, you're gonna be given a topic and then you have to talk about the topic with the guy or girl you're being partnered with. Like I said, it's like a blind date. But it wasn't like we were bound to one partner only. So here's the rules of the game that we played during the class:

Blind date *lol* game

1) Arrange the chair in pairs face to face

2) Sit of the freaking chair* XD*

3) Look at your partner's face

4) Listen properly to the topic given by the lecturer

5) Talk about the topic

6) Exchange experience with each other

7) When prompted, change your seat to the one towards your left *either 1 to 4 steps to your left*

8) Repeat step 3-7

That pretty much sums the whole game. In the beginning, it was way too awkward to even speak with the person in front of me. But then as the game progresses, I started to feel more comfortable to speak, to voiced out my opinions, to talk about my experience. And as I speak, and kept on changing partners, I get to know more people that I never actually cared to speak with before. Like this one girl, Azuki *of course that's not her real name(p/s: I always wanted to talk to her like this before)* who talks about her best friend Aya *coincidentally, I use Aya Hirano as her number name. and IRL we called her Ayya for short*, and how she always hangs out with her and that they always go back home together and stuff. Then we have Roxy * she had to cut her hair boohoo* who talks about her favorite teacher at school * but her memories were all foggy though, I don't know how that happened*. Next we have Tear * who was somehow wearing an identical color scheme as me that day* she talks about how she went for a holiday with her family and that she took pictures with mermaids and stuff * I thought it was real mermaid, it turns out it was only a statue, silly me..* And finally we have Cammie *this one is seriously hilarious*. She talks about the dream guy of the previous girl partnered with her. It was funny because she keeps on insisting on speaking in Malay instead of English *heck, she scolded me because I tried to make her speak in English XD* from my perspective, this girl must be dorkish and fun to be friends with. Let see what"ll happen next time. 


But every good thing has it's flaws...

I once again encountered the Skrull Queen.. and the memories that I tried to suppressed haunts me once more. Every single thing that I wanted to forget shows it's face in front of me. All that past feelings and desires that I thirst so much, were present. And that..resulted in me having a mental shock.

I failed to fully control my mind. And as a result, when I am prompted to do my work.. I couldn't focus. My mind's blank. I was..EMPTY.

*I know, once again a cheerful entry turn out to be a depressing one. sigh..*

But I still couldn't believe it. How was it that a person like me, who spent a majority of his leisure time READING could actually acquired this called "mental block aka writers block" Is my brain THAT tired to actually able to think of something creative to write about during the Writing skills class? Or, am I actually NOT a person that is capable of writing a good essay? These "questions" kept on playing inside my head, like a tune. Forcing me to think otherwise about myself. It's driving me nuts.

Hopefully, my mind won't experience anything like that anymore. I hate it when I can't think straight. It sucks so badly.

P/S: Now do you understand why I put "social" in the title? Because I managed to socialize with people a bit,whoooohoo! XD

*My mind got split into 4*