Mistakes

Assalamualaikum yo

Pernah tak korng rase mcm korang dah buat silap? And by saying "buat silap", I'm talking about something yang buatkan korang rase betul2 menyesal bila korang buat. Aku rase bnde tu dah jadi kat aku skrng.

I think the fact that I confess to Oren dh buat die kureng slese ngn aku la. Aku tk dpt nk rse perasaan sempoi bile ngn die lagi. Macam ade wall je. It feels as if yg die taknak aku ade sekumit pun harapan kt die. I know, die cume nk brkawan n aku pun kate die tak payah terime aku lg sbb aku nk cube tunggu. I understand, she doesn't need another lover right now, and I tried my best acting as if nothing happened. As if I didn't confess in the first place. Aku tau la, muke aku cool masam sngt, brlagak mcm tkde ape, tapi kalau aku dh suke kt seseorng, memng aku tak boleh nk tahan diri dr tngok die like everyday =_='' and I felt like texting her every minute. Haa.. aku rase sbb tu la die tak selese kot? Iye la, aku ni bukan ade ape2 dengn Oren, tapi nk caring gile bagai nk rak...

(Sesiape yg bace blog aku kebelakangn ni, kalau korang rase dh nk muntah sbb entry aku tak abes2 sbb Oren je, sile ar chow skng. Aku tknk ade yg dpt kanser sbb meluat ngn blog aku nih, HAHA.)

Tambahan pulak, skrng si Oren ni sibuk, ngn assgnment, ngn member2 die, so die tkde obligation utk jumpe aku. Dulu pun aku just lucky sbb dpt jumpe die 2 kali. Kali pertama sbb die boring, so die ajak la aku lepak. Disebabkan aku tknak waste the opportunity, aku pun confess la time tuh. Then second time pulak was a mere coincidence. Aku text die tnye die buat ape, then die kate die nk online, tapi bateri lappy die abes. So, disebabkan die boring tkde buat ape2, Oren pun ajak aku lepak lagi. See the resemblance? Maknenye kalau aku nk jumpe die lagi lepas ni, I need to wait til she's bored to the max. Mampu ke aku tunggu? Ya Allah, bagi la aku kesabaran supaya aku boleh tunggu Oren. Aku taknak pisang berbuah dua kali. Dlu aku pernah ckp bnde yg sama dekat "die". Aku tknak buat silap lagi.

*right now praying is the only thing that I'm capable of doing* 

p/s: Entah nape aku rase si Oren cam dlm problem skng.. Maybe it's just my intuition? I hope it's wrong though.