Red Rose Is The Only Girl I'll Never Be Able To Talk Properly With

What was it that I've been doing all this time that causes me to neglect this blog I wonder..? Well, I'm starting fresh, deleted those two entries before * which I forgotten what I'm suppose to write about* and now I'll finally update this blog with THIS entry.

You remembered Rose? Yes, the girl that ended up being in one group with me for Madam N's assignment? You know how I always wanted to speak to her, but the thing is, Rose has this kind of "air" around her that makes her..a bit unapproachable. It's kinda like a barrier that repels people around her. But the thing is, the only one being repelled is actually me. Yes, I AM the only ONE guy who would never be able to approach her properly. You must be thinking since I'm naive, maybe it's just my imagination. But this time, I'm pretty sure what I felt isn't just mere illusion. When other dudes *especially my friends* approach her, the way she reacts was different. It was more...friendly.. But when it was me.. I felt a tinge of coldness and a bit of rejection..

*it hurts*

I know, I know. The way I describe it isn't really understandable and it ended up making me look like like a snob-nose emo guy. I admit, I am emo. But not THAT kind of emo though. I mean, this girl reminded me of myself in the beginning. Keep things to myself, don't reveal too much of my feelings to anyone and never look straight into someone's eyes. That's what happened when I tried to talk to her. No eye contact whatsoever.

*seriously*

it's driving me insane..to the point of me being like this..

*I'm losing my mind..*