The Year of Distant Past

Assalamualaikum to all lelaki and perempuan, homo and sapiens, animal and human sekalian.

First thing of all, tolong just ignore tajuk entry ni, this is NOT a blovel entry and definitely NOT a catchy, dramatic autobiography of myself organized in chapters and what-so-ever. Agree?

(saje je buat tajuk yang mengarut) teehee

Moving on..

So how does 2011 had been for you? Was it great? Was it full of dramas? Or was it just plain, bland all together? Well, it certainly NOT that bland for me though. Let's reminisce a little bit.

The first cruel act of 2011 against me was what I called the "Leader Aspect". Aku diberi jawatan yang aku sendiri tak tahu hujung pangkal, tanggungjawab yang aku kira berat, and paling sekali tanggungjawab yang memerlukan aku terus berhubungan dengan orang lain. I know, if Syamil reads this, he would say "Alah, ape la sangat, ni baru tanggungjawab dekat sini, orang lain pun ada tanggungjawab masing-masing jugak." Ye Syamil, aku tau tu -_-

The second act was thrusting me into the world of martial arts. Aku taktau sejak bila, lepas aku masuk silat, I'd notice myself having a sense of enlightment. Instead of seeing the world dari aspek hitam putih, aku mula nampak warna-warna yang aku sendiri tak pernah nak ambil pusing tu semua. Weird.. Did I ever mentioned yang sekarang ni I'm prone towards violence? Aku tau, the first dugaan yang aku kena tempuh, kuatkan kesabaran diri dulu. *teringat masa aku mengamuk sampai patah penyapu tu aku tibai, good memories haha*

*i can do this, only when I'm really mad*

The third act. Being blessed with classmates with a plethora of traits that sometimes it made me vomiting rainbows all the way. I mean seriously, untuk cuba nak satukan diorang semua seems like an impossible thing, masing-masing ada hal sendiri, masing-masing ada masalah sendiri, and sometimes diorang tak boleh nak commit lebih-lebih. But I do understand though, mereka semua ada life, outside. Fortunately for myself, I don't have any, jadi kalau nak tumpukan sepenuhnya dengan tugas aku and silat pun takde masalah.

*I ain't doing this because it feels good*

The fourth act. Various instance when I gotten myself mad dengan classmates aku sendiri. Yang ni bukan salah diorang, but this one is a problem yang aku ada dari dalam, my personal vendetta. Even kalau diorang buat aku marah pun aku tak salahkan diorang, sebab let's face it, aku ni memang orang yang panas baran sejak azali, the only thing that kept me sane is the fact that I still have Allah by my side.

The fifth act. Learning which one is friend and which one is foe. Yes, tahun 2011 mengajar aku untuk membezakan antara kawan dengan lawan. Sepanjang tahun aku alami satu demi satu halangan, ada orang yang boleh diharap disaat aku susah, and ada jugak orang yang menyusahkan aku, samada diorang sedar atau tak. But to you guys yang stand by me until the end, yang sabar dengan aku punya temper ni. Satu ucapan terima kasih aje yang aku boleh ucapkan. Thanks a lot dudes.

* I really do*

The final and the most cruelest act of all, heartbreak. Aku dah habiskan 1 tahun setengah dekat Unisel, and untuk 1 tahun setengah tu jugak aku terus hidup as a singular lifeform. *wait..what?* I learnt that being a nice guy doesn't have its benefits. Being too nice can turn you into an asshole instead. I also learnt that setiap peristiwa yag melibatkan perempuan dalam hidup aku doesn't have anything to do dengan CINTA. Not at all, everything happens simply because a biological reaction. Maybe hari aku tertarik kepada setiap perempuan yang aku pernah kenal ni is simply sebab their attractive hormones kicks in and for some odd reason angin bertiup ke arah aku and aku pun ter-effect dengan hormone diorang. Ya, aku rasa tu penjelasan paling make sense kot? I mean seriously, you can't really trust your feelings bila berkait rapat dengan perempuan. Honestly speaking.

*single walks never felt any better than this*

2011 had been a year that taught me a lot of stuff. It might be bad, it might be good, but overall it taught me to be more mature, spiritually and mentally....pffft..I'm still an immature kid towards the end of it, haha

P/s : sorry kalau bosan, it's been ages since I last wrote an entry.

Kerana Mulut Badan Binasa

Assalamulaikum..

Today, aku nak cakap skit pasal perihal mulut. Mulut ialah organ manusia yang paling cantik sekali. Seperti korang sedia maklum, mulut manusia ni ialah salah satu nikmat yang Tuhan bagi kat kita, kalau tak kerana mulut, tkde la kita boleh makan, bercakap dengan orang lain dan yg penting sekali, kalau takde mulut, susah jugak la kita nk beribadat, kan? 

Ehem. Sekadar pembuka bicara..

*I honestly don't know why Spongebob's here..*

Okay la, let's get to the point. Pernah tak kawan-kawan korang berlawak dengan korang menggunakan ayat yang memang straight to the point langsi habesssss? And kalau korang melawan balik, diorang automatically assume yang korang ni tacing gila vavi? I don't know lah kalau korang pun selalu *or lebih tepat lagi, memang* mengamalkan cara pergaulan dengan member macam tu, tapi aku will NEVER and EVER biasa dengan situasi ni. 

*I'll freak out eventually*

You see, masa sepanjang hidup aku, ayah aku ajar aku supaya tak mencari masalah dengan orang. Mulut ni sentiasa kena jaga, sebabnya kita tak tau kalau apa-apa perkataan yang kita tuturkan tu berkemungkinan mengecilkan hati seberapa pihak. That is why sepanjang 5 years of my high school career, aku hidup sebagai seorang pacifist, takde musuh, takde kawan. Then bila aku masuk U, aku kena culture shock, cara layanan manusia-manusia ni jauh menyimpang daripada apa yang aku belajar dari ayah aku selama ni. *yes, I know. aku ni memng tak ikut perkembangan semasa*

*The word says it all*

Bila aku dah kenal agak lama diorang ni semua, kesopanan diorng pada awal-awal dulu terhadap aku pun berubah sikit demi sedikit ke arah kelangsian yang aku mentioned kat atas...Awal-awal haritu, aku tak melawan kalau diorng cakap macam tu kat aku, in fact aku just take it as a joke. But then lama-lama aku merasakan setiap kata-kata diorang tu seolah-olah merendahkan harga diri aku. Sebagai seorang lelaki.And to make it worse, aku rasa seolah-olah diorang pijak kepala aku cenggitu je..

*Yeah, I know. Ego is men's worst fear..*

I remembered once, member aku Kakyoin cakap kat aku macam ni "eik eik, tak boleh bawak bergurau dah dia ni." lepas aku lawan balik apa yang dia cakap kat aku. Then member aku yang lagi sorang ni pulak, Guy namenye, bila nampak aku melenting, terus dia cakap "sekali tembak dah lunyai." Yo bro, aku tau la kau jenis "don't give a f**k" psal orang lain punya perasaan, but at least cut me some slack will ya? Aku ni kawan kau, kalau kau bergurau ikut adab takpe jugak, tapi kalau dah bergurau melebih-lebih, nerd macam aku pun boleh mengamuk bro.. 

Haritu, entah kenapa darah aku ni menyirap aje. Kalau boleh aku nampak aje sape-sape yang dekat, mau je aku bersilat dengan diorng ni. Nasib baik iman aku ni ckup-ckup untuk halang aku dari buat keje gila. *sigh*
Lepas berapa lama, aku mengucap bebanyak, baru la aku tenang balik.

K la, tu je aku nk cakap. Assalamualaikum. bye.

p/s: Pengajaran disini ialah "Jagalah mulut anda agar anda tidak mengecilkan hati rakan anda dan juga orang lain" Thank you.

p/s2: pada member2 aku yang bace ni, korang tengok la luahan hati aku ni. Kalau aku cakap depan2 kate aku ni kuat tacing, haa. Bace la, bace la. Aku tau korang gurau, tapi at least kurangkan la skit, paham-paham la aku mcmne. Kalau perasaan korang, aku jage je..can't you do the same for me?

Confession

(Anyone who read this, I advice you to go and puke yourself out. This entry would be full of stereotypical romance stuff that a guy would think of)

Assalamualaikum~

Have you ever felt like confessing your feelings but in the end never did it because you didn't have the courage to do so? And then when you finally manage to muster up enough courage, you learned that she's not ready to settle for a commitment? But towards the end, you told her your feelings anyway.

These couple of days since the last time I updated this blog, my heart was telling me something. Last time I wrote about how I don't mind if "she" doesn't feel the same way about me. Well, I lied. I do mind about that. I just don't make a big fuss about it, and also because I don't want to pressure her with this silly feelings of mine. 

It happened yesterday when I was hanging out with my homies at the cafe when I saw her. Because of what I wrote on her FB, somehow I became..embarrassed when I saw her. I wanted to say hi, but my ego was obstructing me from doing so. Haha, so much for being an ego-free guy huh.. I guess I still have a lot of things to fix with this personality of mine. 

Then, back at the hostel I went online and accidentally, I saw that she was online too. Out of curiosity, I called out to her. 

Me: uii
Her: oii
Me: are u at the cafe?
Me: i saw you just now
Her: haaa, when did you see me?

Me: i was wth my buddies when they said that u wre there

Her: if u saw me, then why no say hi to me?

Me: heck no, i was shy lolz

Her: lol ==''
Her: oi, wanna hang out? im dead bored

Me: im all set, where?

Her: just at th cfe

Me: when?

Her: how bout 4?

Me: ok then! cnt wait to see ya

Her: lol, im wering a green shirt n my hair is messy like crzy, my face even got pimples all over

Me: ek eleh, as if I would care. i think u look just nice

Her: lol ==''

(other contents of the IM was taken out for the sake of privacy, thank you)

And the promised time finally arrived.

Me: (sleeping)

Her: waiting

(That was the stupidest mistake that I had ever done in my whole life -.-'')

When I got there, she was hanging out with her friends. When I finally had the chance to talk with her personally, she jokingly told me to keep my distance, ( I guess she would still be awkward with me, *sigh* ).Time went on peacefully as awkward silence took the best of both of us... when she finally took the initiative to speak. And from there things went a bit smoothly.

As she talks about her family, about how she was the one her parents gave the freedom to act and about how she love to buy clothes by herself, about her best friend and her school days. Then we talked about why she never believe it when people said she's pretty. I told her that my friends thinks she is pretty, but she said they were only being nice to me because they know that I had a crush on her. I kept on telling her that my friends wouldn't do such a thing. Even for me. But she laughs it off.

Then, as I watched  her while she was talking, I went towards the door, trying to make sure nobody would be there. Because I'm gonna do something that I hope I would never have any doubts in. I took a chair, and sit closer to her.

Me: ...I'm wanna talk about something really lame right.

Her: ?

Me: Do you actually believe me when I said I have a crush on you?

Her:Nope.

*she answered that without any doubts lololz TT______TT*

(she told me why she thought so)

Her: Once, my friend's friend wanted to get to know me because he saw my picture, but when he finally met me, he somehow changed his mind. Since then, I had troubles with camera but since my friends always bugs me about taking pictures with them, I guess I'm inseparable with cameras now lolz
Me: But it's a normal thing for someone to like you solely based on your pictures. You listen here, when I first know you, I like you because I think you're pretty. But then as time went on, I manage get to know you better and I realized that you're much more beautiful than I thought you would be. You're like, crazily friendly. Then, when I saw what you wrote, you didn't want to find anyone else because you'd just had a big breakup. So I understand what you're going through. But..I still wanna asked you this.. Are you willing to be my..girlfriend..?

Her: o____O'''
Me: Okay, you don't need to answer that now, because I would seriously run away if I see you next time.  I don't care how long it would take, 5 months, maybe half a year, I don't mind that. Just...please believe me when I said that I like you very much.

Her:...You're seriously making me blushing right now..
Me: XD *laughing* You know, I hope even when you know that I like you, the way you treat me would be no different, I hope you'll always be as fun as now. It's because, I once had a crush on a friend and because of that, she ends up hating me so much. I want us to keep on being friends now...and towards the end still become good friends.

Her: ... I take a lot of time recuperating, sometimes.. it would take years. So..let me tell you this. If someday, you actually fall for someone else, I hope you won't put your whole feelings for her. Because it would hurt you a lot. And when you talked about that girl that you like before, I don't thing she actually hates you, I think it's because she is afraid that she would hurt your feelings. I mean, if I became your girlfriend, that would mean I am the first one for you. That's why I would feel like I have an obligation to stop you from feeling pain in a relationship. I hope you would understand what I'm trying to say here..
Me: Well. I do understand what you're trying to say, but one for thing for sure, I am going to wait for you. And that's a promise. *grin*

Her: lol =..=""

(after what I did that day.. it felt like a burden was lifted off my shoulder. I felt like a free men. Just like Guy would say "Now you can sleep easily, eat easily, and go to the toilet easily") *he sure knows what he's talking about*

After that, we spent a bit of our time chatting. Deep down inside, I was being thankful because at least she didn't outright rejected me. So, now I can finally went on with my life. Why? Because I just have to wait till fate makes everything happens. With that, I'll keep on having faith. That's what a guy like me would do ohohohohoho~ 

Assalamualaikum kthnxbai

Problema?

Assalamualaikum and yo dawgs

Have you guys ever had a crush on someone but at the same time, you already had a mind-set of your own telling yourself that "Even if I do like her, that doesn't mean she needs to like me back."? 

Do you? Well that's the thing. I always have this kind of mind-set whenever I started to feel something for someone. At first, I'm okay with it. I mean, heck I know I don't look that good, and if I like someone that looks drop dead gorgeous, that means I'll either get her OR not. That's just how God and fate shifts in for normal guys like me. Am I right? Having this mind-set also means that I don't need to give a fark about my own feelings. Everything is about her, my job is to make her happy and I don't need to expect anything out of it. If things goes well, that means she will like me back, OR in the worst case scenario, she'll think of me as a good friend and the friendship COULD somehow  blooms into something much more magnificent? I don't know, ever since I'm a kid, I kinda hoped that things like that would happen to me. At least once before I close my eyes forever. I always read stories about it happening all around the world. You know, having a lover that was once your best friend  is possibly one of an average guy's dream.

 

*Don't we all love it when we have a best friend for a girlfriend?*

Then again, when it comes to feelings, things would never be easy. Yes, I remembered once when Ayya told me this. I know that I already vowed about not thinking about my own feelings, but as time goes by, I started to think that in order to conveyed the message that "I like her", I need to show that I CARED for her. But sometimes, when I do that, I'm afraid if she would think of me as an annoying guy. In one of my older entry, I wrote about how I hope that my friendship with her wouldn't be ruined, and I sincerely thought that she is an amazing person to befriend.

It's funny really, when I thought myself as a technical/systematic guy that wouldn't be swayed easily by all that crap bullshit about LOVE and ENDLESS whatnot, but the moment I gave a thought about HER, then everything change. I know that I had felt this before and I SHOULD have been accustomed to it, but I just CAN'T.

This phrase (or something) clearly gave away the true feelings of men such as myself:

"No matter how much a guy flirts a lot, he would always think of his one true love every night before he sleeps." -Anonymous

 *Doraemon, always helps when you want to convey your feelings*

I know I talk with girls a lot, and I know that sometimes, the way others see it as if I'm trying to court them into submission, but seriously, the ONLY reason I did that in the first place was because I never had friends from the opposite gender( if you want to count the ones I had in kindergarten, that's an exception) 

Again, I sincerely hope that she wouldn't hate me because I acted like a douche. A guy can only look like a fool for someone he loves.That's pretty much what I'm trying to do. I just hope I won't look THAT foolish and ends up making her hate me in the process (which already had happened before to me).

*A dream come true for every single being in this whole wide universe*

Assalamualaikum, kthnxbai.

The End Result Justifies All Meaning

 Before I start, I would like to thank my family, especially my parents. If it wasn't for their prayers, I don't think I would have get what I got for the final exam. Despite myself being so lazy, they manage to FORCED inspired me to study for the sake of my future.I love you guys, Mom and Dad. 

 *You can see the strength of love for 20++ years of marriage right there :D*

My forehead was sweating like crazy. I watched the page closely as my heart beat faster and faster. I kept on refreshing since the line was uber slow. Then lo and behold..my result

 

And I was like...

What the FARK?!!

At this point, most of you would think I am :

-happy

-freaking crazily happy

-happy

*lol

Instead, I was like this:

seriously.

In fact, I was really disappointed with myself. I kinda felt sad because my parents wanted me to improve than last semester. Unfortunately, my brain reached it's limit and refuse to improve according to my commands.

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Well, let bygones be bygones. I can't change the results, so I guess I just had to suck it all up.

*From this point on, it's going to be in Malay ye? Nk trimas sikit dengan member-member yang tolong aku ni.

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Nombor 1: Jean Grey aka Aliah Nosri!

-Minah ni la yang mula-mula ajak aku study sesame. Agaknye kalau die takde, aku tak dapat la result yg cenggitu. Thank you bery2 much! Sayang kau bdak Nosri! :P

  

*gambar bajet model dr minah ni. hambik kau,hambik* 

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Nombor 2: Tenaya 15 aka Dyana Zainal!

-Minah ni plak bff dngn si Aliah tu. Kire kalau ke mane2 memng same2 la. Tu psal die pun boleh ade skali mse aku study dngn si Aliah ni. Although sepangjang kitorng study tu, muke Dyana mmg blur abis, die tetap usehe jgak nk paham bile aku explain kt die. Kite study lagi same2 next sem eh, Dyana? 

*gambar bajet rajin dari Dyana, semester 1 punye ni, antik dah*

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Nombor 3: Peanut aka Shafinaz Ishak!

 -Budak peanut ni study skali ngn kitorng sekali aje. But still,at least die ade study skali. SO, aku includekan la. Aku mule2 start brkomunikasi dng die ni mase aku nk balik Ipoh ngn Ayya haritu. Orangnye agak sempoi dn brsuara agak lemak brkrim la jugak *ape aku merepek ni HAHA*

*budak peanut ni pelik skit. Die tak suka orng snap pic die. tak cantik katenye. muke dh elok awat ckp cmtu? pelik..pelik..* 

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Yg seterusnye ni tak payah nk bernombor2 lah kan? Gedik Happy sngt pulak diorng ni karang.

-Guy Cecille aka Aqmal Yusri

-Lucis Caelum aka Hafiz Schemer

-Jin Kazama aka Afix Aaron

-Kurosasori aka Azril Ayub

-Uchiha Sasuke aka Owais Qarni Hadauan

-Kakyoin Noriaki aka Muhd Farid

 

 *Aku cume mampu buat intro yg mcm ni je untuk korang, HAHA*

Aku ucapkan terima kasih banyak2 sebab korng snggup mndengar aku mengexplain apekejadah haram tu sume. Walaupun bnde tu bosan nk mampos and boleh buat korng mengantuk, korng still dengar jugak, *lagi2 Second Language, aku explain bnde yg tkde masuk dlm exam kat korng HAHA (sori)* Next sem kita satu rumah, lagi banyak la korng dengar aku mengarut bile nk dekat2 final tu yek. Anyways, thanks a lot guys.

Chocolate Love

 

*Happiness is blissful*

Journey Towards Danny

Assalamualaikum yo

"As I awake from my slumber, I realized I was in a bus. I couldn't remember but I think I was on my to some place...then I saw it..in front of me was...a fifty foot marshmallow man? wtf?!"

*what was I suppose to feel again?*

Kay, sorry about that. I didn't have any idea on how to start this entry so I just wrote what I experience while dozing off one day. Right, let's get on with what I'm gonna talk about tonight. Last Friday, me and ma boys went to KL to search for a book. Well long story short, the book is essential, and we NEED to read it.

Friday 28 January 2011

Friday was a free day for me and the boys so the night before, we decided that we should go to KL and search the whole place down for this book. Well, the book being a famous one doesn't make things easier. The stocks were out fast and we were running out of time. So it was decided. We'll be going out after the Jumaat prayers. Since I need to withdraw my money and stuff. 

Now that all of us are ready, we all go and wait in the bus. And the journey will start at 3.30 sharp.

*Kuro's face looks tight(translation: muke ketat) wakakakaka*

 *At this point, both Sasuke and Lucis was dead hungry*

 

Then after an hour or so, we reached masjid Jamek and took an LRT from there to KL Central. I must say, KL Central was mind-blowing. There's like a freaking lot of humans there that i was almost certain I would be lost *well, it WAS my first time actually exploring the place duhh* 

 *Onwards man! March towards the LRT!*

Btw, the KTM*or was it LRT?* to Mid Valley was uber compact by the time we reached  it. So, we end up missing one and we had to wait for the next one. That's when I spotted a familiar face. It was Honey! It seems she was on her way to some place. Since the place was already crowded, there's no freaking way I can go and greet her *hell, she was in line for the women-only coach* 

Now that we reached Mid Valley, the first thing we did was having our so-called lunch *but I think it was more like dinner? I dunno*  But yea, after observing the whole food-court, I decided to eat some chinese styled dishes. I just wanted to try it once. That'll be enough for me. 

*I didn't remember what it was called, but the taste was...okay, I guess* 

*the dudes were starving, thanks god there was a food court in the first place.* 

After that, Guy said he wanted to go to the PC fair that was held on the upper floor, since we don't really have anything in particular to do, we ended up following him. Guy wanted to buy himself some stereo system or something.  We pretty much spent the majority of our time in there, just looking at nooks and crannies. Testing out things here and there. meh boring stuff.

Right after we got out from the PC Fair, I managed to snap a pic of this:

*The decorations for CNY looks great (it's so weird for things like this to come out from my mouth)*

It was then when Guy got some info about where we could find the books that we were searching in the first place! So off we went towards the designated destination : TheGardens ! 

After relentless searching we finally found the book store. The first thing we did there was trying to find the books ourselves. But it was futile. Guy and others ends up asking the employees about the stock for the books. The girl said there was only two left so me and Guy bought it on-the spot. While Jin, Sasuke, Lucis and Kuro was busy discussing about where to find the books next, the girl suddenly came towards us with 7 of those books. I was like:

 

 *I thought you said there was only 2?* 

With that, all of us eds up with one copy each. By that time we were already thankful that there was enough for all of us. Sooo, to commemorate the *not so* historical event, I snapped some pic again.

 

 *Now, this is how hard working students looked like* 

* I found mine :D* 

Now that we already found em, what else should we do? Posing and snapped more pics of course! *I know, we don't have anything else to do (-____-) haha*

*can not go*

*If only I have DSLR*

*this place looks romantic, although I don't understand the significance of putting a guy AND a piano into a bird cage*

*this is practically the best pose they could pull off while I snapped the pic*

*and yes,that is me with that MPH bookstore plastic bag*

P/s: To all of you guys, thanks a lot for taking me out. Besides from it being my first time experience going for all boys night out, it was awesome and awkward at the same time *since I had to walked behind ya guys or else I would had gone lost* Whatever it is, THANK YOU.

Red Rose Is The Only Girl I'll Never Be Able To Talk Properly With

What was it that I've been doing all this time that causes me to neglect this blog I wonder..? Well, I'm starting fresh, deleted those two entries before * which I forgotten what I'm suppose to write about* and now I'll finally update this blog with THIS entry.

You remembered Rose? Yes, the girl that ended up being in one group with me for Madam N's assignment? You know how I always wanted to speak to her, but the thing is, Rose has this kind of "air" around her that makes her..a bit unapproachable. It's kinda like a barrier that repels people around her. But the thing is, the only one being repelled is actually me. Yes, I AM the only ONE guy who would never be able to approach her properly. You must be thinking since I'm naive, maybe it's just my imagination. But this time, I'm pretty sure what I felt isn't just mere illusion. When other dudes *especially my friends* approach her, the way she reacts was different. It was more...friendly.. But when it was me.. I felt a tinge of coldness and a bit of rejection..

*it hurts*

I know, I know. The way I describe it isn't really understandable and it ended up making me look like like a snob-nose emo guy. I admit, I am emo. But not THAT kind of emo though. I mean, this girl reminded me of myself in the beginning. Keep things to myself, don't reveal too much of my feelings to anyone and never look straight into someone's eyes. That's what happened when I tried to talk to her. No eye contact whatsoever.

*seriously*

it's driving me insane..to the point of me being like this..

*I'm losing my mind..*

Scars of Tomorrow: Tweety Bird's Tale

Today I'm gonna talk about a classmate of mine. We called her Tweety *maybe it's just me* because according to my research, *ehem* they called her that because she reminded them of the famous cartoon character Tweety bird. *you know, that little yellow cutesy bird that ALWAYS have that prankster cat Sylvester on her tail* Well, this girl got a particular trait that we usually see from her speech pattern. Whenever she does her presentation* especially in a group* she would usually add the world "lah" or "ah" at the end of her sentences. Kinda like a new speech pattern *or something*. Based on my observation *ehem fancy word right there* Tweety is one of the students in the class that would ALWAYS be in class, no matter what time it is. But these couple of days, Tweety was absent from almost all of the classes, I heard *from someone* she had a fever( I couldn't remember who said that). Then, one day she'd just reappeared during my group discussion with Yangus,Sarasvati, Lynette and Rose. I'd noticed that her face were kinda pale *in comparison with her original skin tone, there wasn't much difference since she's a fair lady (what the hell am I saying??)*  But, yeah she does look paler than usual (what the fuuuuuu am I trying to say???). Then, last night I had the opportunity to IM with her. So we talked a bit, then I asked her " Is your fever already subsided?" and she asked me back " Who said anything about me having a fever?" I was like:

*Owh..*

Then she said to me "Don't be shocked okay? I had an operation. There was some kinda tumor inside my tummy and they had to take it out. A couple of days before that, I cried like hell.."

I had no idea you were in that kind of situation...

That explains her absence, So I was like "Owhhhhh, no wonder you couldn't come to the class. You should rest properly then." And she said, " I've got permission for absence until 5 Jan, hihihi" and I said " Good, you seemed happy eh?" and she replied " More like bored, I have nothing to do. That's why I came to class that day. But after the class, my cut got opened. Maybe because I moved to much in one day..The doctor didn't close the cut, since they wanted the cells to grow by itself" Then I told her about making a blog, that's one way to spend some time and at the same time train your English. Then she said "Hmm, maybe I do it next time." It was midnight and Tweety excuse herself since she wanted to sleep already, so I bid her farewell. I hope she'll be okay the next time I see her.

 *I don't know the point of putting this bird here*