The Beginning of The End

I was called into doing this one after seeing a friend updated her blog with the same reason for the entry. Well then. Let us get to the main point.

Since it's gonna be new year's eve,I bet you want to listen to a story? It's been a while right? Then here goes..

Once upon a time, there was commoner. His whole life, he played it by the book. The commoner had one goal in mind. He wanted to live normal life, work a normal job, and die as normal as he can. Simply put, the commoner really did live as a commoner. He never faced any challenge, nobody hates him nor likes him. That was until he found himself at the royal castle. He  had fallen in love with the queen. You see, this causes an anomaly in the commoner's plans. By letting himself fallen, he realized that he would never be able to play it safe anymore. Day by day, the commoner kept on exchanging letters with the queen. The commoner was happy. Because his life had just started to become an exciting one. But little did he know, that he will have to pay a price for what he had achieved. 

*The commoner*

 Although the commoner doesn't have any solid relationship with the queen, he was actually hoping for more. He wanted to be with the queen, staying by her side. Being loyal only to her. But the commoner doesn't realize that the queen had already have someone else in mind by that time. It was a prince from a distant kingdom. A talented pupil of the commoner's mother. And it seems, they had already had a relationship prior to the commoner meeting the queen. One day, while on his way meeting the queen, the commoner saw this foreign prince going to the queen's chamber. There, he saw how the queen treated the prince the same way she treated him. 

*The queen*

Right there, the commoner had a revelation. He thought to himself " I..wasn't that special after all. I was only ANOTHER man that she befriended. I was blind to keep on having faith. I should leave her be." The following day, the commoner took his leave. He exiled himself to faraway place. Hoping he would be able to forget. That's when he met the Sorcerer. He made a deal with her. If she wipe off clean the whole feelings he harbored for the queen, then he would live his whole life living as normal as ever again. The Sorcerer speak of one phrase " He who forgets will earn his happiness" and just like that, the commoner forget and the queen was forgotten.

A couple of months later. It was new year's eve in the kingdom. As the commoner sat alone together with the stars filled sky, he wondered to himself. What did he do to deserved this? What should he do now? After tasting a bit of life he never had, he wanted more. Trying to live normally now would be a stupid thing to do. He yearns for excitement. He wanted to feel that "feel" again. But he was heartbroken by that time. He kept smiling although it felt like hell inside. 

Then, the skies were filled with light, the fireworks were all over the place. He had already forgotten the new year's celebration. As he stood there, someone pat him on the back. It was his friends, and there was his family. Their faces were radiated with light, they were happy. It was then that feelings struck the commoner's heart. He was too determined to fall in love that he forgotten about those who actually cared for him. He was too blinded by self-pity, that he didn't realized that there are others who would comfort him. From that day on, he promised himself. No matter what happens, no matter what kind of people would stand in his way, he would ALWAYS think of his love ones. And to make the pain go away, he would indulge himself in his life's work. And he will continue this, until the day he sure that he met the RIGHT one.

And so the story ends with the determined commoner, sitting together with his family and friends under the fireworks filled sky. Enjoying the moment before everything subsides.

I know, I know. The story kinda sucks but it'll do for new year's eve. Just bear in mind. Don't be like the commoner who had his hopes up for something absurd. Sometimes, it's better for us to be a bit self-reserved. Don't get your hopes up too much cuz when the time comes, you'll the one that get hurt, not the other way around.

P/S: Happy new year mom and dad, and also to my siblings

XOXO kthanksbye

The Social Network and Mental Shock:Writers Block

I know what you're thinking. I'm not talking about that movie but I'm referring to THE actual social network. Don't get what I'm saying? Fine. Then let me story you  a bit  about what happened to me today.

Once upon a time...*LMAO*

I had Writing skills class today. And it was awesome.  Here's  he part where the title is referring to. The first activity that we done in class that day was kinda like random date kind of thingy *understand me?* You know, when you're being set up for a blind date kind of event, you're gonna be given a topic and then you have to talk about the topic with the guy or girl you're being partnered with. Like I said, it's like a blind date. But it wasn't like we were bound to one partner only. So here's the rules of the game that we played during the class:

Blind date *lol* game

1) Arrange the chair in pairs face to face

2) Sit of the freaking chair* XD*

3) Look at your partner's face

4) Listen properly to the topic given by the lecturer

5) Talk about the topic

6) Exchange experience with each other

7) When prompted, change your seat to the one towards your left *either 1 to 4 steps to your left*

8) Repeat step 3-7

That pretty much sums the whole game. In the beginning, it was way too awkward to even speak with the person in front of me. But then as the game progresses, I started to feel more comfortable to speak, to voiced out my opinions, to talk about my experience. And as I speak, and kept on changing partners, I get to know more people that I never actually cared to speak with before. Like this one girl, Azuki *of course that's not her real name(p/s: I always wanted to talk to her like this before)* who talks about her best friend Aya *coincidentally, I use Aya Hirano as her number name. and IRL we called her Ayya for short*, and how she always hangs out with her and that they always go back home together and stuff. Then we have Roxy * she had to cut her hair boohoo* who talks about her favorite teacher at school * but her memories were all foggy though, I don't know how that happened*. Next we have Tear * who was somehow wearing an identical color scheme as me that day* she talks about how she went for a holiday with her family and that she took pictures with mermaids and stuff * I thought it was real mermaid, it turns out it was only a statue, silly me..* And finally we have Cammie *this one is seriously hilarious*. She talks about the dream guy of the previous girl partnered with her. It was funny because she keeps on insisting on speaking in Malay instead of English *heck, she scolded me because I tried to make her speak in English XD* from my perspective, this girl must be dorkish and fun to be friends with. Let see what"ll happen next time. 


But every good thing has it's flaws...

I once again encountered the Skrull Queen.. and the memories that I tried to suppressed haunts me once more. Every single thing that I wanted to forget shows it's face in front of me. All that past feelings and desires that I thirst so much, were present. And that..resulted in me having a mental shock.

I failed to fully control my mind. And as a result, when I am prompted to do my work.. I couldn't focus. My mind's blank. I was..EMPTY.

*I know, once again a cheerful entry turn out to be a depressing one. sigh..*

But I still couldn't believe it. How was it that a person like me, who spent a majority of his leisure time READING could actually acquired this called "mental block aka writers block" Is my brain THAT tired to actually able to think of something creative to write about during the Writing skills class? Or, am I actually NOT a person that is capable of writing a good essay? These "questions" kept on playing inside my head, like a tune. Forcing me to think otherwise about myself. It's driving me nuts.

Hopefully, my mind won't experience anything like that anymore. I hate it when I can't think straight. It sucks so badly.

P/S: Now do you understand why I put "social" in the title? Because I managed to socialize with people a bit,whoooohoo! XD

*My mind got split into 4* 

Heroic Age of The Tigers

A glorious night indeed. For us Malaysians, this night marks the first step in the history of football in Malaysia. It is the night, where we can truly feel proud. Proud of our very own football team. And for the first time in my life, I actually screamed my lungs out when Malaysia scored a goal. CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT? A usually self-reserved guy like me, would actually interested in something barbaric like this match? Well, I guess the hot-blooded legacy of a warrior that always lies dormant in all of the Malaysians actually manifested itself tonight.damn that sounded so cool* 

One thing that I would always bare in mind is the sight when the whole student swatching the match at cafe screaming like hell when Malaysia won. Pity though, since I couldn't capture that moment in a pic *I curse myself for having a low quality camera (boohoo)*

All in all, I hope Malaysia can keep progressing until one day we would actually reach world prestige. And when that time comes, the young tiger of Malaya, would become a fearsome beast that would shake the world at it's core. Believe it.

Scars of Tomorrow: Tweety Bird's Tale

Today I'm gonna talk about a classmate of mine. We called her Tweety *maybe it's just me* because according to my research, *ehem* they called her that because she reminded them of the famous cartoon character Tweety bird. *you know, that little yellow cutesy bird that ALWAYS have that prankster cat Sylvester on her tail* Well, this girl got a particular trait that we usually see from her speech pattern. Whenever she does her presentation* especially in a group* she would usually add the world "lah" or "ah" at the end of her sentences. Kinda like a new speech pattern *or something*. Based on my observation *ehem fancy word right there* Tweety is one of the students in the class that would ALWAYS be in class, no matter what time it is. But these couple of days, Tweety was absent from almost all of the classes, I heard *from someone* she had a fever( I couldn't remember who said that). Then, one day she'd just reappeared during my group discussion with Yangus,Sarasvati, Lynette and Rose. I'd noticed that her face were kinda pale *in comparison with her original skin tone, there wasn't much difference since she's a fair lady (what the hell am I saying??)*  But, yeah she does look paler than usual (what the fuuuuuu am I trying to say???). Then, last night I had the opportunity to IM with her. So we talked a bit, then I asked her " Is your fever already subsided?" and she asked me back " Who said anything about me having a fever?" I was like:

*Owh..*

Then she said to me "Don't be shocked okay? I had an operation. There was some kinda tumor inside my tummy and they had to take it out. A couple of days before that, I cried like hell.."

I had no idea you were in that kind of situation...

That explains her absence, So I was like "Owhhhhh, no wonder you couldn't come to the class. You should rest properly then." And she said, " I've got permission for absence until 5 Jan, hihihi" and I said " Good, you seemed happy eh?" and she replied " More like bored, I have nothing to do. That's why I came to class that day. But after the class, my cut got opened. Maybe because I moved to much in one day..The doctor didn't close the cut, since they wanted the cells to grow by itself" Then I told her about making a blog, that's one way to spend some time and at the same time train your English. Then she said "Hmm, maybe I do it next time." It was midnight and Tweety excuse herself since she wanted to sleep already, so I bid her farewell. I hope she'll be okay the next time I see her.

 *I don't know the point of putting this bird here*

Chipolatas? :-3 and Increase Self-Esteem

"If a romantic dinner is referring to the situation, then how about "sexy dinner"? Can you imagine it?"

IMAGINING SOMETHING...(grinning)

"Okay, you can keep to yourself whatever you are imagining right now. I don't need to explain it."- =_='' Mdm. N.

Seriously, today's literature class is the funniest one I've had in a while. And it was all because of ONE particular poem. Yes, I'll marry you *No, I'm not referring to you* by Pam Ayers. Well, the poem's mainly about the power struggle between genders and the demands of a women. *Yeah, I'm starting to type like an English teacher now* But that's NOT the thing that I wanted to talked about. Btw, ignore my stern tone above, I just wanted to talked about how FUN today's class was, jeez.

Here goes.

Today, we had a presentation and we were lucky because Mdm. N was in a good mood *despite herself being busy* which means it'll be a good thing for Rose * since she's the one that's gonna be presenting the stuff in front of the class.* But despite having a smooth sailing while presenting, we were still bombarded with questions regarding our tone and mood of the poem *we were doing Mother to Son by Langston Hughes btw* And here comes the worst part, Me and Yangus FAILED to aid them * Sarasvati, Lynette, and Rose*

...I know, instead of talking about fun, it became depressing instead....Enough with that matter...

* I'm not THAT depressed to kill myself lol*

But here's the FUN part, when Mdm started to talked about how making a direct translation from Malay to English can resulted into forming words that would sounded SOOO WRONG  *such as, "THE POWER OF MAN"(seriously), "HARDNESS OF LIFE"(it's MY group's mistake btw) and "THE DEMANDING OF WOMEN"(i know what you're thinking)* Then she talked about this one particular word. CHIPOLATAS. Nobody actually understands the meaning of that word, * I thought chipolatas are fancy name for italian coffee(silly me)* but then Mdm said something that strikes me. "Chipolatas is a small 'sausage'....and she wants him to cook it every night..." and my reaction was like this:

*What the fuuuuuuuuuuu*

In the end, that was the part that I seriously won't forget this entire semester. *learning about a kinky(erotic in nature) poem*

Fine, enough with the fun stuff, moving on..

For Mr. S's class, he told us to read the notes given for 15 minutes and then he'll called out our names randomly to explain about things such as Competence and Performance, Comprehension and Production, Nature or Nurture, and etc.. * I'm suck at explaining things, which fortunate because Mr. S didn't call my name at all (phew..)* But the thing goes on and on and on.. There was this one time when he ask Connan if he wanted to read the notes or not, Connan ask him if there is any other choices for him. Then Mr. S explains further about why he asked such question. He told us that he was actually using a type of speaking known as 'DISCOURSE' * let's just say that it's words with underlying message. When he ask Connan if he wanted to read, he's actually trying to say that Connan MUST READ THE NOTES* I remembered Mr S's eyes at that time was like this:

*O_o''*

Then he asked us this question, "If a 4 year old child listen to a radio, can he acquire the language?" We took a lot of time before actually understanding it and then someone answered and said "No, because process of acquiring the language needs someone else to interact with". That's ONE question down, then Mr. S asked this question, " Can the child learn the language by listening to the radio?" Here's where things get complicated. Realizing that the whole class was filled with uncertainty, Mr. S told us that we are still clouded by low self esteem, and that if we can't speak up now, we wouldn't be able to speak properly at all. Inspired by those words, the whole class tried to answered the question but to no avail. "100 % CONCENTRATION!! " I said proudly. And he responded by saying "Wrong! You're expecting a 4 year old to give 100 % concentration??" Then I tried AGAIN, that's when Mr. S said, " Looking at your face tells me that the answer might be correct" and try to guess what happens next? I said " The program must be able to motivates the child?" *smiling* and I heard Mr. S sighs... 

=_=''

So, yea.. In the end we managed to went back early with the help of Gaara. Although he didn't really gave a complete answer, it was correct..so..yeah

What I do realized after that class was that my self esteem *might* had gone up a little bit. Why, you asked? Well, a realized I was smiling while answering the question given by Mr. S. And that smile felt..comfortable. I dunno, maybe it's just my feeling. Hmm.

It's One Hell to Another and United We Stand

Nowadays, public transport is an essential thing whenever we wanted to go anywhere. I myself uses the train every time I gone home and back to Unisel. Not just that,  we *the younger generations* prefer to use public transportation rather than using our own transport *at least that's what I think*. 

Sorry about starting my entry with an essay intro *I wanted to brush up my LEET skills yo!* But I was reallyX100 tired today. It wasn't because I didn't have enough sleep *okay, I sleep for 2 hours only*. But it was because I had an adrenaline surge *by walking crazily from one point to another* And it was all THANKS to the freaking bus!

And the story goes like this:

I woke up at 7 and went on to complete my Subuh prayers. Since my train will only depart at 9.15 sharp, I've got another 2 hours before going to the station. Once I departed * after hugging my parents goodbye of course*, the train took 3 hours for me to reached Sungai Buloh from Ipoh. Once there, *after taking a comuter  from Rawang* I headed straight for the bus stop. The time was 11.45 pm.

2 freaking hours later...

The bus FINALLY came... In the end, I was late to Mr. B's class by 30 minutes! Heck, I didn't even get to have a shower after that long journey! I went straight to the bathroom, took my wuduk and pray straight away. I was unfortunate enough to get there and not get scolded by Mr. B *thanks a lot Mr. B! Although your class made me yawn a lot, but I really do appreciate you!* . *sigh*

*sigh*

*END OF PART ONE*

Right after Mr. B's class, me and Yangus stayed behind so that we can group up with Sarasvati, Rose, Tweety and Lynette.  Us, being the guys were quite timid *although it's suppose to be a group discussion and we have to (at least) give out opinion over the matter being discussed*. But despite not being of any help at all, we actually did pretty good to survive in a group where the girls are UBER great. *Applause to ourselves* In the end, the discussion was settled. We concluded that as long as we can explain the whole poem thoroughly to Mdm. N tomorrow, then we don't need to feel afraid of anything. Rest assured, we'll be okay.

*study smart, don't be like this girl here*

*END OF PART 2*

Lucky Draw and My Last Stand: Malaysia's Triumph

OH YEAH! SCORED!

Today, I went with my parents to a clothes shop. I wanted to buy a neck tie *a particularly white one* to be paired with my *all* black shirt. Unfortunately for me, there was none *sigh* so I instead chose a red neck tie *hey, at least it looks good with that black shirt of mine*. Btw, we were lucky because a couple of days before, my mother already went to the shop and ends up entering a lucky draw. So while we were busy shopping, the shopkeeper *who was the one that keeps calling the buyers names* called my mother's name "ROSNI HASHIM!! IS SHE HERE!?" and my mother *who's a person that can get panic easily* shouts back " I'M HERE! I'M HERE!!" and she claims the prize *a big pillow btw* 

Okay, that's enough with the lucky draw thingy.

OH YEAH! SCORED!

Next, I finally managed to finished my assignments. Despite the fact that my whole team members were late *I freaking asked them to give their life philosophy to me earlier but, nooooooo. They went on chillaxing like there's no freaking deadline!* sigh.. But by the end of the day, the work was worth it * although I'm the only one that did the job thank you very much( I was the one that volunteered myself jeez)*  

Okay, shut up with the assignments stuff already.

OH YEAH! SCORED!

OMG!WOW! I can't believe this. Malaysia won 3-0 again Indonesia!! That's just freaking insane!! My mind's blowing up right now at an orgasmic proportion!! OMGZZZZZ!! * Seriously, even a non-football fan like me would feel the adrenaline rush whenever I heard the word "Malaysia defeats Indonesia" simply because I'm proud of the team.* They showed the garudas who's boss and they managed to pay back for the humiliated loss against Indonesia last time *5-0 Ouch* But all good things always have a price to be paid. And the price is the Indonesians *SHITTY* attitude towards their loss. Seriously, they said that the only reason Malaysia won was because our fans use lasers *seriously?* to ruin the attention of their goalkeepers. *meh, if you can't take the loss like a man, you better off without those rusty balls anyway* So..yea, in the end Malaysia rules and kick the shit out of Indonesia. * I hope they'll do the same the next round against Indonesia at Jakarta* let's pray for their success.

 *It's time to celebrate for retribution! Long live Malaysia*

Enjit-Enjit Semut and Wonderful Outing

*Today was an astounding day. Went to the cinema for a movie with my bro and sisters. Seriously, it's a really wonderful way for me to brush off this burden that I've been having these couple of days. Thanks ya guys, it was a refreshing start for me once more.* (okay, enough with the warm intro)

My day started quite off than usual today, since I spend the night doing my assignments and ends up having an hour of sleep. I woke up at 11*I'm ashamed of myself* Had my brunch at the same time, then I went on and watched TinkerBell at TV2* I love that movie..because my beloved Mae Whitman played the role of Tinkerbell (oh I "heart" her)hahhh* Then after having my Zohor prayers, me and my siblings went with our parents to Jusco. At the same time, I was hoping I could meet up with Lala* hey, it won't kill me if I meet her,right?* 

* I HEART you Mae Whitman*

The movie * Hantu Kak Limah Balik Rumah* started at 2.30 and we were quite late at the time. Since today's Christmas, a lot of people *especially couples* would go out and just have fun. I don't quite understand the significance of having fun on Christmas day though.. Isn't it suppose to be similar to Aidilfitri in terms in the way to celebrate it? Being thankful is chock-full enough. Okay, enough with that.

What I couldn't forget about this day is the fact that the whole cinema was laughing their ass off while watching! I'd say, Mamat Khalid* the director* did a darn good job in making this movie! He managed to take his movie out of Malay stereotypes and ends up making a wonderful masterpiece! If I could make a comparison, I would say that Mamat Khalid's movies is the equivalent of the Scary Movie series of the West. It's fresh, it's down- right ridiculous and of course, it's wonderfully stupid. *seriously, for me every good movie is a stupid movie, that's just how I justifies the end result after watching em'* 

Well, after finishing up the movie, we all went to the toilet * it's something that we NEED to do after watching a movie for 2 hours straight*. There, I managed to snap a pic of me and my lil bro

*We are the Katayanagi twins!*

Then, we went to find a place to eat since we were starving that time * try not eating anything the whole day* Kakcik paid for the meal since she's the one with money in hand. *thanks sis!* After that, me and my bro went to do our prayers. Since we still got some free time before mom and dad fetch us up, we went for a little stroll around the place *what else can we do anyway? It was effing crowded back there* I was secretly trying to find Lala while doing that, but unfortunately, I couldn't find her*bummer* Sorry Lala, your gramps 'ere kinda slow, if he'd exchanged numbers with you, things would had been a wee-bit easier and we could have met. Sorry.

By the end of the day, my mind was ease*despite not meeting Lala*. All thanks to you guys! My beloved family, thank you for making me happy~

*The photogenic miracles!*

* The evil Twins*

*I love the drinks*

Lala: Redux

Lala enlisted me as one of her grandfathers *Hah, I wonder how many people would feel weird that I already have a grandkid at this time of age(I felt so old.. uhukuhuk XD)* Yes, I'm happy that someone actually recognized my existence and gave me the opportunity to be a certain someone to that particular person *in my case it's about being a grandpa*. Today, I saw the fun side of Lala, once in IM she interacted with me like I'm her real life grandpa, you know. That kinda made me happy a little. For someone like me that would just look at things like this sarcastically, I kinda felt proud having a grandkid like her now. *I don't know why, maybe it's parental instinct? ROFL XD* Then, came the awkward scene: Lala said to me "GRANDPA LET'S MEET UP!" I was kinda taken aback, so I asked " wait..what?meaning?" then she said "HANG OUT!". Again, I was speechless, so I said "dudette, you're like at the other half of the world" and she responded "Hahaha no i'm not"

Then I asked her again " where do you live anyway?" and she answered " Kedah (smile) Im going to Ipoh tomorrow anyway" then I thought "Owh, no wonder..wait..what?". I asked her if she was serious and she even CAPS LOCK it and said "YEAH". I was like this:

 *this girl is serious* 

Then I asked her "doing anything in particular there?" and she said " just shopping". So I said "good, enjoy your shopping spree, child" but then she asked " But you? I wanna meet you la my grandpa." 

and my face was like this:

*I was freaking out, thank you very much* 

 I told her that I was scared because I never met anyone from the FB before and that I was scared stiff by what she said. Because of my immaturity, I end up looking rather stupid in her eyes. Now I don't think she's gonna talk to me anymore. But Lala, I hope you understand that this grandpa of yours just got a weak heart, things like this can easily make me jump from my seat *whatever that's suppose to mean* Today, I'm going to the cinemas, so "if" I can still see you there..Then it'll be a good thing. I'll just keep on having faith, since I'm not as panicked as yesterday. So, BELIEVE IT.