The Beginning of The End

I was called into doing this one after seeing a friend updated her blog with the same reason for the entry. Well then. Let us get to the main point.

Since it's gonna be new year's eve,I bet you want to listen to a story? It's been a while right? Then here goes..

Once upon a time, there was commoner. His whole life, he played it by the book. The commoner had one goal in mind. He wanted to live normal life, work a normal job, and die as normal as he can. Simply put, the commoner really did live as a commoner. He never faced any challenge, nobody hates him nor likes him. That was until he found himself at the royal castle. He  had fallen in love with the queen. You see, this causes an anomaly in the commoner's plans. By letting himself fallen, he realized that he would never be able to play it safe anymore. Day by day, the commoner kept on exchanging letters with the queen. The commoner was happy. Because his life had just started to become an exciting one. But little did he know, that he will have to pay a price for what he had achieved. 

*The commoner*

 Although the commoner doesn't have any solid relationship with the queen, he was actually hoping for more. He wanted to be with the queen, staying by her side. Being loyal only to her. But the commoner doesn't realize that the queen had already have someone else in mind by that time. It was a prince from a distant kingdom. A talented pupil of the commoner's mother. And it seems, they had already had a relationship prior to the commoner meeting the queen. One day, while on his way meeting the queen, the commoner saw this foreign prince going to the queen's chamber. There, he saw how the queen treated the prince the same way she treated him. 

*The queen*

Right there, the commoner had a revelation. He thought to himself " I..wasn't that special after all. I was only ANOTHER man that she befriended. I was blind to keep on having faith. I should leave her be." The following day, the commoner took his leave. He exiled himself to faraway place. Hoping he would be able to forget. That's when he met the Sorcerer. He made a deal with her. If she wipe off clean the whole feelings he harbored for the queen, then he would live his whole life living as normal as ever again. The Sorcerer speak of one phrase " He who forgets will earn his happiness" and just like that, the commoner forget and the queen was forgotten.

A couple of months later. It was new year's eve in the kingdom. As the commoner sat alone together with the stars filled sky, he wondered to himself. What did he do to deserved this? What should he do now? After tasting a bit of life he never had, he wanted more. Trying to live normally now would be a stupid thing to do. He yearns for excitement. He wanted to feel that "feel" again. But he was heartbroken by that time. He kept smiling although it felt like hell inside. 

Then, the skies were filled with light, the fireworks were all over the place. He had already forgotten the new year's celebration. As he stood there, someone pat him on the back. It was his friends, and there was his family. Their faces were radiated with light, they were happy. It was then that feelings struck the commoner's heart. He was too determined to fall in love that he forgotten about those who actually cared for him. He was too blinded by self-pity, that he didn't realized that there are others who would comfort him. From that day on, he promised himself. No matter what happens, no matter what kind of people would stand in his way, he would ALWAYS think of his love ones. And to make the pain go away, he would indulge himself in his life's work. And he will continue this, until the day he sure that he met the RIGHT one.

And so the story ends with the determined commoner, sitting together with his family and friends under the fireworks filled sky. Enjoying the moment before everything subsides.

I know, I know. The story kinda sucks but it'll do for new year's eve. Just bear in mind. Don't be like the commoner who had his hopes up for something absurd. Sometimes, it's better for us to be a bit self-reserved. Don't get your hopes up too much cuz when the time comes, you'll the one that get hurt, not the other way around.

P/S: Happy new year mom and dad, and also to my siblings

XOXO kthanksbye

The Social Network and Mental Shock:Writers Block

I know what you're thinking. I'm not talking about that movie but I'm referring to THE actual social network. Don't get what I'm saying? Fine. Then let me story you  a bit  about what happened to me today.

Once upon a time...*LMAO*

I had Writing skills class today. And it was awesome.  Here's  he part where the title is referring to. The first activity that we done in class that day was kinda like random date kind of thingy *understand me?* You know, when you're being set up for a blind date kind of event, you're gonna be given a topic and then you have to talk about the topic with the guy or girl you're being partnered with. Like I said, it's like a blind date. But it wasn't like we were bound to one partner only. So here's the rules of the game that we played during the class:

Blind date *lol* game

1) Arrange the chair in pairs face to face

2) Sit of the freaking chair* XD*

3) Look at your partner's face

4) Listen properly to the topic given by the lecturer

5) Talk about the topic

6) Exchange experience with each other

7) When prompted, change your seat to the one towards your left *either 1 to 4 steps to your left*

8) Repeat step 3-7

That pretty much sums the whole game. In the beginning, it was way too awkward to even speak with the person in front of me. But then as the game progresses, I started to feel more comfortable to speak, to voiced out my opinions, to talk about my experience. And as I speak, and kept on changing partners, I get to know more people that I never actually cared to speak with before. Like this one girl, Azuki *of course that's not her real name(p/s: I always wanted to talk to her like this before)* who talks about her best friend Aya *coincidentally, I use Aya Hirano as her number name. and IRL we called her Ayya for short*, and how she always hangs out with her and that they always go back home together and stuff. Then we have Roxy * she had to cut her hair boohoo* who talks about her favorite teacher at school * but her memories were all foggy though, I don't know how that happened*. Next we have Tear * who was somehow wearing an identical color scheme as me that day* she talks about how she went for a holiday with her family and that she took pictures with mermaids and stuff * I thought it was real mermaid, it turns out it was only a statue, silly me..* And finally we have Cammie *this one is seriously hilarious*. She talks about the dream guy of the previous girl partnered with her. It was funny because she keeps on insisting on speaking in Malay instead of English *heck, she scolded me because I tried to make her speak in English XD* from my perspective, this girl must be dorkish and fun to be friends with. Let see what"ll happen next time. 


But every good thing has it's flaws...

I once again encountered the Skrull Queen.. and the memories that I tried to suppressed haunts me once more. Every single thing that I wanted to forget shows it's face in front of me. All that past feelings and desires that I thirst so much, were present. And that..resulted in me having a mental shock.

I failed to fully control my mind. And as a result, when I am prompted to do my work.. I couldn't focus. My mind's blank. I was..EMPTY.

*I know, once again a cheerful entry turn out to be a depressing one. sigh..*

But I still couldn't believe it. How was it that a person like me, who spent a majority of his leisure time READING could actually acquired this called "mental block aka writers block" Is my brain THAT tired to actually able to think of something creative to write about during the Writing skills class? Or, am I actually NOT a person that is capable of writing a good essay? These "questions" kept on playing inside my head, like a tune. Forcing me to think otherwise about myself. It's driving me nuts.

Hopefully, my mind won't experience anything like that anymore. I hate it when I can't think straight. It sucks so badly.

P/S: Now do you understand why I put "social" in the title? Because I managed to socialize with people a bit,whoooohoo! XD

*My mind got split into 4* 

Heroic Age of The Tigers

A glorious night indeed. For us Malaysians, this night marks the first step in the history of football in Malaysia. It is the night, where we can truly feel proud. Proud of our very own football team. And for the first time in my life, I actually screamed my lungs out when Malaysia scored a goal. CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT? A usually self-reserved guy like me, would actually interested in something barbaric like this match? Well, I guess the hot-blooded legacy of a warrior that always lies dormant in all of the Malaysians actually manifested itself tonight.damn that sounded so cool* 

One thing that I would always bare in mind is the sight when the whole student swatching the match at cafe screaming like hell when Malaysia won. Pity though, since I couldn't capture that moment in a pic *I curse myself for having a low quality camera (boohoo)*

All in all, I hope Malaysia can keep progressing until one day we would actually reach world prestige. And when that time comes, the young tiger of Malaya, would become a fearsome beast that would shake the world at it's core. Believe it.

Scars of Tomorrow: Tweety Bird's Tale

Today I'm gonna talk about a classmate of mine. We called her Tweety *maybe it's just me* because according to my research, *ehem* they called her that because she reminded them of the famous cartoon character Tweety bird. *you know, that little yellow cutesy bird that ALWAYS have that prankster cat Sylvester on her tail* Well, this girl got a particular trait that we usually see from her speech pattern. Whenever she does her presentation* especially in a group* she would usually add the world "lah" or "ah" at the end of her sentences. Kinda like a new speech pattern *or something*. Based on my observation *ehem fancy word right there* Tweety is one of the students in the class that would ALWAYS be in class, no matter what time it is. But these couple of days, Tweety was absent from almost all of the classes, I heard *from someone* she had a fever( I couldn't remember who said that). Then, one day she'd just reappeared during my group discussion with Yangus,Sarasvati, Lynette and Rose. I'd noticed that her face were kinda pale *in comparison with her original skin tone, there wasn't much difference since she's a fair lady (what the hell am I saying??)*  But, yeah she does look paler than usual (what the fuuuuuu am I trying to say???). Then, last night I had the opportunity to IM with her. So we talked a bit, then I asked her " Is your fever already subsided?" and she asked me back " Who said anything about me having a fever?" I was like:

*Owh..*

Then she said to me "Don't be shocked okay? I had an operation. There was some kinda tumor inside my tummy and they had to take it out. A couple of days before that, I cried like hell.."

I had no idea you were in that kind of situation...

That explains her absence, So I was like "Owhhhhh, no wonder you couldn't come to the class. You should rest properly then." And she said, " I've got permission for absence until 5 Jan, hihihi" and I said " Good, you seemed happy eh?" and she replied " More like bored, I have nothing to do. That's why I came to class that day. But after the class, my cut got opened. Maybe because I moved to much in one day..The doctor didn't close the cut, since they wanted the cells to grow by itself" Then I told her about making a blog, that's one way to spend some time and at the same time train your English. Then she said "Hmm, maybe I do it next time." It was midnight and Tweety excuse herself since she wanted to sleep already, so I bid her farewell. I hope she'll be okay the next time I see her.

 *I don't know the point of putting this bird here*

Divine Revelation

Morning....Damn, that's one hell of a sleep I was in. It felt like I was sleeping on a cloud of sheeps *or something fluffy and soft..like a pillow*. But that's not what I wanted to talk about, it's just the intro though. But instead, I want to talk about this one particular human characteristic. It's what we call as PRIDE. In Christianity belief, PRIDE is one of the seven deadly sins. And it was the worse of all sins. It's the same in Islam. Being too Prideful over something meaningless could spell you trouble. But it's ironic. PRIDE being the worse sin of all ends up being the easiest thing for any human being to feel. Parents feel proud when their children finally succeed in their lives. A man feels proud for his strength, his looks, and his ability to gain any girl he wants. A women feels proud of her beauty, her ability to make any men fall for her. Then a soldier is proud of himself, for being able to serve his country till the day he dies. These are all the examples of PRIDE that usually shows up in our society. But here's the thing, is it really wrong when your parents feel proud for whatever success you achieve? Is it wrong for a soldier to feel proud of his own servitude? Is it wrong for your parents to feel proud after nurturing you your whole life? The answer is, NO. They have that bragging rights. They have the right to feel proud, to feel that PRIDE without being sinful. Because they work their ass out every day and night for our freaking sake and for the country...SO, that leaves us with one question. Do man and women have the right to feel proud over themselves for looking good, for their ability to flirt with each other, and the fact that they have girl friends or boy friends? Of course, NO! They don't have that right. Out of all PRIDE, having a SELF-PRIDE is the worse! I mean, seriously. Why would you feel proud that you can hook up with many girls at the same time? Why the buck would feel proud that you manage to make guys to swoon over you? That's just one buck up statement! So, what I'm trying to say here is, it okay for us to feel PRIDE. But what matters most is the reason for that PRIDE to exist within us. If the reason is meaningless, you'll just book yourself a one way ticket to HELL.

 

 *A shocking revelation that even animes are scared of*

Can I say something?

I'm tired but I can't sleep. The best thing about it is, I have to wake up early in the morning or I'll be late for my train..Hmm. What to do..what to do..