A Seed Called Love

  Assalamualaikum, hi ya guys!

"Bila kita cintakan seseorang, kita takkan mengharapkan mereka untuk menjadi milik kita. Apa yang kita mahukan, hanyalah kegembiraan dan kebahagiaan bagi diri mereka."-Sincerely me.

Sekadar pembuka entry pada *tengah malam* hari ni, hoho ^^

A couple of months ago, I was finally on a stage where I think I have found someone that I love. Tapi aku belum faham apa yang dimaksudkan dengan perkataan "cinta" tu. For me, semua perkara yang terjadi kat aku, sepanjang beberapa bulan ni, had changed me into an impulsive man. Because of my impulsiveness, aku anggap yang showing my affection towards her would actually secure my spot in her heart.

*:)*

Somehow, until a day ago, I was taken in by a storm with a situation that demands me to make a decision. Between sabotaging a beautiful relationship, or cuba sedaya upaya aku untuk baiki hubungan tu. The situation presented me with a choice. In that split second moment, aku pilih jalan yang aku anggap terbaik untuk membuatkan "dia" gembira, iaitu dengan bagi sokongan moral to her, and urging her to do what she think is right for her.

*believe in me*

I'm sure you are wondering, if I really do love her, kenapa aku tak try untuk buat benda yang patut bagi kelebihan kat diri aku, betul tak?

* I was torn between the right choice*

Honestly, at first aku pun tak tahu, kalau aku dah buat pilihan yang betul *bagi aku* atau tak. But to think of it, from a love-struck individual point of view, I think I'd made the right decision. Today, she showed me how happy she was. For me, nothing matters most than seeing that smile of hers, even if she won't be with me. 

*I really do*

Now, I would love her for no more reason other than Allah. Kerana sekarang..aku serahkan soal jodoh kepada DIA. Apa yang aku mmpu buat, hanyelah berusaha. Aku percaya, mungkin jodoh tu bukan sekarang, tapi satu hari nanti. 

 *Aku yakin!*

Assalamualaikum. 

p/s: I think..someday, I'll use this entries about hers as proof that at one point in my life, I had loved a women, with all of my heart.