The Year of Distant Past

Assalamualaikum to all lelaki and perempuan, homo and sapiens, animal and human sekalian.

First thing of all, tolong just ignore tajuk entry ni, this is NOT a blovel entry and definitely NOT a catchy, dramatic autobiography of myself organized in chapters and what-so-ever. Agree?

(saje je buat tajuk yang mengarut) teehee

Moving on..

So how does 2011 had been for you? Was it great? Was it full of dramas? Or was it just plain, bland all together? Well, it certainly NOT that bland for me though. Let's reminisce a little bit.

The first cruel act of 2011 against me was what I called the "Leader Aspect". Aku diberi jawatan yang aku sendiri tak tahu hujung pangkal, tanggungjawab yang aku kira berat, and paling sekali tanggungjawab yang memerlukan aku terus berhubungan dengan orang lain. I know, if Syamil reads this, he would say "Alah, ape la sangat, ni baru tanggungjawab dekat sini, orang lain pun ada tanggungjawab masing-masing jugak." Ye Syamil, aku tau tu -_-

The second act was thrusting me into the world of martial arts. Aku taktau sejak bila, lepas aku masuk silat, I'd notice myself having a sense of enlightment. Instead of seeing the world dari aspek hitam putih, aku mula nampak warna-warna yang aku sendiri tak pernah nak ambil pusing tu semua. Weird.. Did I ever mentioned yang sekarang ni I'm prone towards violence? Aku tau, the first dugaan yang aku kena tempuh, kuatkan kesabaran diri dulu. *teringat masa aku mengamuk sampai patah penyapu tu aku tibai, good memories haha*

*i can do this, only when I'm really mad*

The third act. Being blessed with classmates with a plethora of traits that sometimes it made me vomiting rainbows all the way. I mean seriously, untuk cuba nak satukan diorang semua seems like an impossible thing, masing-masing ada hal sendiri, masing-masing ada masalah sendiri, and sometimes diorang tak boleh nak commit lebih-lebih. But I do understand though, mereka semua ada life, outside. Fortunately for myself, I don't have any, jadi kalau nak tumpukan sepenuhnya dengan tugas aku and silat pun takde masalah.

*I ain't doing this because it feels good*

The fourth act. Various instance when I gotten myself mad dengan classmates aku sendiri. Yang ni bukan salah diorang, but this one is a problem yang aku ada dari dalam, my personal vendetta. Even kalau diorang buat aku marah pun aku tak salahkan diorang, sebab let's face it, aku ni memang orang yang panas baran sejak azali, the only thing that kept me sane is the fact that I still have Allah by my side.

The fifth act. Learning which one is friend and which one is foe. Yes, tahun 2011 mengajar aku untuk membezakan antara kawan dengan lawan. Sepanjang tahun aku alami satu demi satu halangan, ada orang yang boleh diharap disaat aku susah, and ada jugak orang yang menyusahkan aku, samada diorang sedar atau tak. But to you guys yang stand by me until the end, yang sabar dengan aku punya temper ni. Satu ucapan terima kasih aje yang aku boleh ucapkan. Thanks a lot dudes.

* I really do*

The final and the most cruelest act of all, heartbreak. Aku dah habiskan 1 tahun setengah dekat Unisel, and untuk 1 tahun setengah tu jugak aku terus hidup as a singular lifeform. *wait..what?* I learnt that being a nice guy doesn't have its benefits. Being too nice can turn you into an asshole instead. I also learnt that setiap peristiwa yag melibatkan perempuan dalam hidup aku doesn't have anything to do dengan CINTA. Not at all, everything happens simply because a biological reaction. Maybe hari aku tertarik kepada setiap perempuan yang aku pernah kenal ni is simply sebab their attractive hormones kicks in and for some odd reason angin bertiup ke arah aku and aku pun ter-effect dengan hormone diorang. Ya, aku rasa tu penjelasan paling make sense kot? I mean seriously, you can't really trust your feelings bila berkait rapat dengan perempuan. Honestly speaking.

*single walks never felt any better than this*

2011 had been a year that taught me a lot of stuff. It might be bad, it might be good, but overall it taught me to be more mature, spiritually and mentally....pffft..I'm still an immature kid towards the end of it, haha

P/s : sorry kalau bosan, it's been ages since I last wrote an entry.