Experimental Comic #1

It's been a one sinkhole of a week for me since the start of the holiday, so, I was wondering if I could spent this whole 3 weeks doing a rather productive thing. Then, I had an idea! Why not I upload the *so-called* manga I wanted to work on into this precious blog of mine! 

Ladies and Gentleman, presenting...

Chaos Odyssey 

Synopsis:

Set in the world of Naeveria where a war had raged on for a millennium between the citizens of light and the citizens of darkness. The story focuses on it's main character,Archibald Kingston, a mercenary. A man full of mysteries, he took part in a war that resulted in death of many innocent lives. During the war, an experimental weapon by his masters were unleashed upon the battlefield. It was a meteor shower that decimated the whole region. The result was a hideous mutagenic infection that spreads across the field, resurrecting the survivors with a surge of energy that activates their latent powers. The survivors were taken in as experimental subjects and Archie, the only one in the battlefield who actually have a genuine power; resulted from an experiment conducted by the enemies side on him years ago, was also thought as a mutant when he displayed his mastery over his powers. Now, it is up to Archie to safe the survivors, finding companions to go against Holy Empire of Lucinda's conquest for world domination.

Characters:

Archibald Kingston

Warrior of the Sun

Archibald Kingston. An enigma. An ex-convict and also the victim of the SUN CHILDren project. Archie posses the power to absorb electrical energy and convert it to energy that resembles that of a miniature supernova. In Solar-Streak mode, Archie is known as subject 01 aka PETER. The reason for this code-name is still unknown. His powers were misunderstood as mutanagenic in nature because of a meteor shower incident during a war where Archie took part in as a mercenary. He discovered his undeveloped powers after escaping the confinement of Luna City Labs, killing 4 guards in the process of running away. Courageous and have outstanding leadership qualities, Archie is well respected by the community of the mercenaries. After saving Cat from the dungeons of Luna City, he became dependent on Cat's ability to power up during battles, making her his most trustworthy partner.

Catarina Belford

Electro babe

Catarina Belford. A war victim. She was present during the Elmford War when a meteor shower hit the battlefield and ends up destroying her village. She is the sole-survivor and as the result of the incident had developed mutant powers of her own. She can produce electrical energy to propel herself forward giving her the ability to fly for short distance. She can also use the electricity to zap her opponents from afar. Captured after the war, she was use as an experiment by the Holy Empire of Lucinda. Given the codename of TinkerBell, she finally gained her freedom after being saved by Archie. From then on, Cat made an oath that she would always stay by Archie's side, becoming his most trusted companion and in turn becoming his number one source for Solar-Streak mode.

Shane Ryujo 

Fighter of Fury

 Shane Ryujo is the son of the house of Ryujo. Being the youngest son of the family where all the older members are well-respected soldiers of Holy Empire of Lucinda, he had to work extra hard to gain the respect from his father, Lord Ryujo. Fortunately for him, the Empire started their campaign for world domination. However, everything changes when he took part in Elmford War where he encountered the enigmatic Archie. The fight was fierce, neither backing down. That's when the meteor shower hit them. Almost losing his life in the incident, he was taken back by the Empire for further examination. He developed a new found power, those that have similar effect such as the power that Archie had demonstrated during the war's aftermath albeit much weaker. He was taken in as a test subject and given the codename DraCo. During the rescue mission carried out by Archie, Shane escaped from his cell, witnessing Archie's ability in his Solar-Streak form and it's superiority. From that point onwards, Shane was indebted to Archie and felt it is his duty to defeat Archie in combat and prove to him that he and Archie are equals in term of strength.

...and there you have it. This is pretty much 1/4 of the characters I'm making for this manga. And I still need to improve the character designs. In the future, I might upload the manga for you guys to read. Ganbatte neh~

kthnxbai

Is this love? Or simply a biological crush?

 "The first time you like a women, it is called love, but the second time is simply lust"

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As you all may know, my heart had been broken to pieces quite badly last year. Yes, it was my first heartbreak and also the most shittiest in my whole 18 years of life time. I fell in love with a girl, the girl ends up being hurt because of me, then she found out about my feelings for her, ends up putting me aside, have a good time with her so-called boyfriend and then disappeared completely out of my life. I a spent a good deal of time recuperating, trying to cope with the loss *yes, we had no relationship what-so-ever, so I prefer to call her my unofficial ex*. Try to imagine it, I spend 4 months texting with her, trying to convey my feelings, but it fell on deaf ears. Then right after the final exam, I found out the cruel truth about her feelings for me. Believe me, its effing brutal. She already decided to ignore me, so I had to disappear from her radar too. I walked away just like that, expecting some kind of a reaction, but then again, who am I to give that kind of effect to her. She wouldn't even f**king care. I am nothing less, nothing more.

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Enough with the confession, let's go on.

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My post this time is based solely on the phrase above. After a long absence of a women in my life, I decided to take action. I wanted to find someone that I would be able to expressed my feelings to. My search bears fruit in the form of two exceptionally attractive,beautiful young women. One where I had build a friendship with *which I hope would never be severed no matter what happens in the future* and another where I had took my own initiative to communicate with * and I hope would be able to befriend and stay in touch with*. Now here's the question, is what I'm doing right now the right thing? Should I continue to pursue both women in exchange for my own happiness? Is the feelings that I felt for both of them are love, or simply a biological attraction? Is this simply "me" trying to once again forget the pain that I felt last time?

I am ashamed and I do not know why. 

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Let me tell you guys about them. 

The first one thinks of me as a listener. Someone that she could trust and tell her problems to. She always think of herself as ugly, or fat or..well anything that's not good. I had to tell her that she's pretty as the way she is. The first time I met her, she thought I would run away because she thinks she not as pretty as I thought she is on Facebook. But then again, that was the first factor that made me to become attracted to her. Her appearance, then once I know her for quite some time, it was her personality that charms me till today. She had a rough time lately, and I hoped she'll be okay for the time being without me by her side. I hope.

Then, we have the second girl. I met her recently. It was a coincidence though. She was friend to a friend of mine. Specifically her housemate, she actually came to accompany her friend *my friend* for our study group session. And I *once again* fell, on the spot. I know, it's wrong for a guy like me to have this feeling when I'm actually rooting for another girl. But I can't help it. I felt a strange attraction to her. The more I listened to her talking, I realized that it made me remembered the good times back in the old days when I never felt any heartbreaks, the time when I am still naive. The smile, her demeanor, every single detail..

Then I came upon another thing. This gave the most biggest impact on me. It says : "If the man that I love fell upon another girl, then I'd leave him. If he really did loved me, he wouldn't had tried to find another option. He would have trust me. I don't want to become a choice." Something like that along the line. 

Am really trying my hardest to fall in love again? Or is this my way of trying to prevent myself from feeling hurt again. Right now, I have the choice of hurting the feelings of two women that I cared for. But if I really did care of their feelings, would I do all of these in the first place?

Now I am wondering. Is this love? or lust?

Think.

Chocolate Love

 

*Happiness is blissful*

Self-Impose Incarceration

As I was writing this, I realized at this point of my life, I was starting to lose control of myself. I'm becoming more violent, impulsive, annoying and many other negative trait that I shouldn't have in the first place. I'm starting to have doubts in myself. In the beginning, I wanted to change for the better. I wanted people to know who I'm really am. But the more I change myself, the more I'm starting to lose sight on my true self.

*It is the truth*

Today, I made a brash statement to my friend. Then I acted impulsively and took seriously a joke that my friend played on me. When he stated that I got angry easily, I instantly noticed the changes within my own psyche. I must admit, the surge of overconfidence that accompanied this "change" had gain my liking towards it. But, as my presence are made known to others, I had intentionally caused a rift in my relationships with people that I care. I'd just had this strange feeling that other people think me as inferior to them. As this fact had made me..literally mad to the point of releasing this frustration and venting it on innocent bystanders. Now with my parents going for umrah, I MUST ask them to pray that I would be cleared of doubts and that I would be a man that would not be ashamed of my own decisions.

*my parents and family*

Therefore, I am hereby telling myself that from now on, I am no longer the same person as before. I will change even if that is the last thing I do.

*Oh God, let me change myself to something better*